Shouldn't I?

Passed out on a Monday Blacked out too drunk and I can't think Can't get my head straight, stuck in a headspace I never do it right unless its your way I let my guard down for a minute And I should've tapped out, but I didn't It's all breathe in breathe out, barely been living Feel like I should get help, but I shouldn't Why shouldn't I Shouldn't I Find a way out, not to live a lie, live a lie, live a lie Ugh, just some peace of mind Out of sight, out of sight, out of sight, out of sight, out of sight You decide If I'm worth your time, if I'm worth your time, if I'm worth your time Am I worth it, am I worth it, am I worth it Am I worth it Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, I shouldn't Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, I couldn't Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, why didn't I Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah Why is it all worthless I know that I deserved it You lit my match and burned it I feel like I'm a burden to you And you confirmed it I'm sorry I'm not picture perfect The way you picture me would only end up hurting Ugh, my bad I'm not the way you pictured Imma let the pole dance like a god damn stripper That chop sing a melody, bitch it got rhythm Balenciaga jeans 6K for the denim Boy I put a hole in him Your boy a swisher and we get to smoking him Like fuck do you know 'bout him Fuck do you know 'bout it Boy you a nobody I make you disappear this some tomfoolery Ugh, just dropped a bag on some jewelry Me and twin pull up you should write you a eulogy Keep a chop like charcuterie This shit ain't new to me Stay with some sprinters in sprinters, they cool with me Cool with me but they ain't cool with you Better go for a swim, leave him laying in a blood pool Dua, Lipa, I got some new rules Keep a, heater, it gonna heat you Mmm, heat 'em up, heat 'em up Mmm, out of luck, out of love Mmm, count 'em up, count 'em up Make him croak like a frog or he'll quack like a duck Dirty a cup boy I'm pouring up mud Pack me a clip he'll pack him a lunch Feel like call of duty with a pack-a-punch Bad bitch with a booty, guess I'm a munch What it do for you and I Living social suicide My head screwed off, I can't decide Tell me tell me, do you mean what you imply Shouldn't I Shouldn't I Shouldn't I Shouldn't I Shouldn't I Find a way out, not to live a lie, live a lie, live a lie Ugh, just some peace of mind Out of sight, out of sight, out of sight, out of sight, out of sight You decide If I'm worth your time, if I'm worth your time, if I'm worth your time Am I worth it, am I worth it, am I worth it Am I worth it Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, I shouldn't Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, I couldn't Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, why didn't I Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah Why is it all worthless I know that I deserved it You lit my match and burned it I feel like I'm a burden to you And you confirmed it I'm sorry I'm not picture perfect The way you picture me would only end up hurting