The Narrative

I was just a kid Who couldn't get it Turn knowledge into behavior Couldn't have a problem cause I had a savior Anything wrong guess I shoulda prayed more I guess I shoulda made more of myself Mistakes I made cause no one else Knew of my stealth Ah yeah they wouldn't stop tripping me Yeah y'all 'member me Missionary worship leader Tried to make daddy proud of me Save the world spread the seed Give them all the prince of peace I guess I was too weak I guess I'll go to sleep Maybe I'll be holy in my dreams This is the story that I told myself How I made it all the way to hell I coulda stoped it if I acted well Maybe been saved if I had asked for help This is the story that I told myself How I made it all the way to hell I coulda stoped it if I acted well Maybe been saved if I had asked for help Come on let's change up the narrative Can't sleep no sedative Same old stories got me nowhere fast Running from the past Till I'm empty on gas Yeah bringing up the rear Ah coming in last Think it needs a fresh pass Clean up the scene descriptions New character arcs and convictions I was just a boy yeah born to a world Where you had to be perfect all for the lord Doesn't matter what you feel Cause your feeling ain't real Compared to Jesus Who died to free us No skills to cope No emotional freedom Just a missionary worship leader Who couldn't stop stealing things To fill a need Saved by a tryptamine This is the story that I tell myself How I made it all the way to hell I tried to stop it but it didn't help It's what I needed but I couldn't tell This is the story that I tell myself How I made it all the way to hell I tried to stop it but it didn't help It's what I needed but I couldn't tell Is it a lie or mental construct Maybe public relations are keeping my head up I don't really care for your take on my fuck ups Cause it's on me Who I was and supposed to be Coming in hot with my destiny Is it a lie or mental construct Maybe public relations are keeping my head up I don't really care for your take on my fuck ups Cause it's on me Who I was and supposed to be Coming in hot with my destiny This is the story that I'll tell myself How I made it all the way to hell Just a kid that didn't know himself Found a way out through his mental health This is the story that I'll tell myself How I made it all the way to hell Just a kid who didn't know himself Found a way out through his mental health