Break Season

You're 3000 miles away and I'm still stuck in California Said I'll change the world some day But I can't do that while I mourn ya They say if you love somebody, then it's best to let them go We've been hanging on for dear life but it's wearing out the rope And my mother says to have faith and to leave it up to God But I think I prefer statistics, I'm just scared to weigh the odds I took a gamble when I left, and fear I'm running out of luck I once called you forever, but forever called my bluff And I love LA, but it's the season of the breaks And I have one shot to make mine count before it's too late I'm terrified I left the best things all behind to chase A different life, but it's a chance I'll never take If I dream each night of some version of you That I could've had but I had to choose Now I'm tire tracks and I'm on my way You're my other half, but that'll have to wait As you live between your anger and the darkness you can't face And I live all of my between, these jaded stanzas on a page It isn't fair to keep you waiting on the promise of some day You'd rather hang in limbo but I've seen that tether break And it's the chances we don't take that always end up in resentment It's the reason I blink through my tears as I started the engine I don't mean to bring you sadness, but we're way better than that I hold you to a standard but now you just hold me back And I love LA, but it's the season of the breaks And I have one shot to make mine count before it's too late I'm terrified I left the best things all behind to chase A different life, but it's a chance I'll never take If I dream each night of some version of you That I could've had but I had to choose Now I'm tire tracks and already late You're my other half, but that'll have to wait I know you're looking for the answers I don't have But we'll bury our futures if we keep digging up the past I'm sorry that putting me first meant putting you last I hope one day you'll understand that I Love LA, but it's the season of the breaks And I have one shot to make mine count before it's too late I'm terrified I left the best things all behind to chase A different life, but it's a chance I'll never take If I dream each night of some version of you That I could've had but I had to choose Now I'm tire tracks and I'm on my way You're my other half, but that'll have to wait Have to wait