Conflicted

I feel ashamed when talking bout the way I feel The pain I feel This shit's unreal I said I had to get out that shit And I knew I'd do it I just had to pursue it I'm gon be great I knew it Everything I did, I did for you And I meant that My life's different I get that It just seems like everyone's just bringing up old shit that I can't take back You hate me nigga just say that Still trippin bout shit from way back I said what I said don't regret that... Nigga But I'm different now I'm that nigga now I was lost, but now I'm found I came up when I was down Who'd a thought I'd be that nigga that's been rockin' out these crowds Me Me Cuz I'm my biggest supporter Making music for quarters My bitch left me when I was down Cuz I just couldn't support her But she fucked up Cuz my plates gon be ten thousand an order I sit in the back of that Rolls with that 22 defense Otto Porter Nigga I did that Man I did that All these niggas they so jealous They gon try and get they get back So I can't lack Nigga I can't lack Cuz I'll take a nigga life before you see my mom dressed in that all black don't forget that I'm at a loss for words I was always showing love, but that shit for the birds Cuz I was there for them, but not for me I'm never treated equally Swear to God this shit been getting on my fucking nerves But I just keep going I know that shit gon keep me straight And God the only man I fear cuz he control my fate To all you other niggas I promise I won't hesitate To lay you down if you try to take some shit that's on my plate I'm fighting me it ain't no competition Niggas ain't my opposition I don't give a fuck bout what you niggas talk with that petty dissin' I know if y'all could Y'all would die to be in my position I know it I know it