Conversations

(It's me against myself) (It's me against myself) Jyl, why you actin' like we never met? You know well I've been tellin' you what to do in your head Thinkin' you can use me to push you to your goals Then throw me out 'til you're pathetically crawlin' back again No, you can't get rid of me, this is how it begins Call me your worst enemy, but I'm your best friend I'm the only one that's really known where you been What you're doin' and where you're goin' Would you really want this to end? I don't know, it depends I really don't want you anymore But in my defense You cause a lot of pain and existential sufferin' You make me overanalyze myself and make me feel I'm better off dead Whoa, I just really want the best for you Present the truth, so what you gonna do? Call me out, now you don't got the guts to pull through You know I know you better than you know you Shut up, don't laugh when I'm talkin' I'm honestly tired of all of your mockin' My mind's on the up and up, and I don't need you for once Think I can take the next leap without bein' shoved Now I got some questions How come you told me that I'd never fit in? Said I gotta give up 'cause you would always win But you better think before you double-cross me You've been sloppy up to the edge All this time I put my trust in you You made my mind a prison now it's time to prosecute You thought I'd never escape this pain That you were pullin' me under Thought you'd cut so deep I would never recover Shh, quit actin' like I'm the villain 'Cause you ain't no saint, don't you get it? I'm helpin', I had to push you to break So you could be great 'Cause true worth comes from real pain But it's okay, I can wait I'm the one you should thank Feels like it's me against myself Am I the villain or the victim now? I can't scream to call for help 'Cause I don't know how It's a lonely bout Me against myself Why you think you gotta beat up or drive? It's the pain and the passion makin' you come alive There's no dark without light, no peace without fight No you without me, why would I lie? You're dead without my energy And look, you got people watchin' you now You kept it in all this time 'Cause you thought sellable meant sellin' out You know everyone's so quick to be the judge and the jury The world ain't used to a girl expressin' your kind of fury All this time you were hidin' Nothin' 'cause emotions on your sleeve show brightly Look at what you want and not what you need How'd you like a life with no privacy? Hmm, I guess we'll see Geeze, I find it ironic how this world could be so mean Respect to the fallin' who never got a chance to breathe I just wanna be seen and hear that someone heard me I'm stuck with critical you, and you ain't got no mercy Tell me why I should listen when no one's listened to me? Yeah, I'm angsty and spiteful, what would you think? When it's been buildin' up over the years I be smarter than I put out to believe But then I tear myself down just to fit into society's box I thought I needed the keys 'til I kept breakin' the locks Now I get it Label me the problem 'cause I just don't fit in I'm fed up with this dissonance so good riddance As long as I'm alive with a pulse and a pen I'll never stop writin' when I'm feelin' on the edge The bends have been straightened, not a dead end Children, no subtext, I'll be the voice who understands Feels like it's me against myself (like me against myself) Am I the villain or the victim, now? (Am I the villain or the victim now) I can't scream to call for help 'Cause I don't know how (don't know how) It's a lonely bout Me against myself (like me against myself) Myself, myself No, I can't call for help (whoa) It's lonely bout Me against myself