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I try, try not to get too down on myself While on the process we got lives on the line But the deeper I get into this fight I cry myself to sleep thinking what I shoulda coulda done I never I had a chance Oh no, don't get me wrong We got the tools to do good But when all's said and done I close my eyes, I try to shut it out I close my eyes, pretend to hear no sound I close my eyes, visualize, this is paradise I close my heart, my conscience is my price You're telling yourself the world's gonna be just fine You're playing by the rules but I'm gonna live by mine How did we ever get to this point of such distraction? Take the money and run run run I search my soul thinking what I shoulda coulda done I never I had a chance Oh no, don't get me wrong We got the tools to do good But when all's said and done I close my eyes, I try to shut it out I close my eyes, pretend to hear no sound I close my eyes, visualize, this is paradise I close my heart, my conscience is my price Your world just stops It's getting harder and harder to feel Just waiting, buying time Looking for answers 'till I know what's real It don't feel the same, will I heal Will I ever be the same, I hope I will Crunch time About time I prepare myself For that long climb upon my knees from the bowels of hell But I've had some recent practice swimming against the tide Redemption's a lonely road but someone's gonna try Thirty pieces of silver to reclaim my soul I'll sing high to the heavens with my luck, the gates will still be closed... The gates will still be closed. I close my eyes, I try to shut it out I close my eyes, pretend to hear no sound I close my eyes, visualize, this is paradise I close my heart, my conscience is my price