Feeling (feat. Thandeka)

Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts I must admit my parents tried too They took me to a private school Uniform and nice shoes And gave me extra lunch money to buy food But there wasn't much studying Just rather acting the the fool Tryna score honies Cause we thought we looked cool I was that kid with an above average I.Q Now I'm sitting here regretting Should've done better in high school No site of brighter day in the midst of gloom And the sun's showing no signs of coming out soon When you said when days are dark Friends are few, you were right I thought they wouldn't mind When I need a friend to confide Instead of helping out They're making fun of you online But God, only you know why Tryna silence my anxieties I don't think I'll survive They thought I was alright I cried every other night Mama pray upon my life I'm contemplating suicide Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts I've been symptomatic from Hypomanic episodes I was high on mandrax when I wrote Not such a happy note That everything you need to know I left it in the envelope But check it on a broad scope Depression's not a joke One, too many times I got my heart broke Too many lost loved ones left a gaping hole I've lost all control Of my mind, body and soul Received God's call Never heard a word the Lord spoke I'm out here all alone Can't find my way home Cause I'm looking for oasis in deserts of lost hope All my goals and dreams were not enough to draw strength Reeking alcohol smell And stale cigarette breath I'm in a deep state of ill mental health I'm so scared to face my fears but not death But I admitted to myself That I needed to get help A journey of a thousand miles begin with one step (Yo) Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts Feeling... Nothing but a feeling No one gets dealt The same hand of cards It's how you play your hand that counts