Hiraeth

Maybe you were the poison all along Not the antidote you said you had become Because my tongue tastes sour and I need your love You were a sip of cherry wine from a crystal cup Pirouettes around the roof You didn't realize One wrong step and you would fall Could I even say I was surprised? Roaming through my thoughts You own them all You didn't recognize mortality Now I'm veiled at your funeral Felt comfort in your thunderstorms But it never crossed my mind that we could drown Every home I never had I found in your arms Raindrops fell from your eyes I looked up to the clouds Made a mockery of me when you disappeared Pleaded to the holy but they couldn't hear Disintegrated my beliefs with their acid tears Begging for relief relinquished from my fears Fell victim to their thunderstorms It's almost like they wanted me to drown They stole the place I once called home And as the water swallowed me I couldn't make a sound Placate all my fury Leave a fallen definition of your love You filled my bones up with your empty promises You pulled from up above Come on in I'm already raw I can barely breathe For your soul is wild But white little pills they give me what I need You've clipped my wings No longer here to fight You'll come and go and the spinning will slow tonight Tonight Tonight Tonight My thoughts deconstructed on the floor I wonder would you pick them up or would you break them more? 'Cause the puzzle's missing pieces I hate who I've become Your tongue inside my mouth Spit me out like bitter rum Wicked things those thunderstorms Come out of nowhere and expect you just to drown I'm unhinged and untethered from my home The sole cause of it all I'm just a puddle on the ground Maybe I was the poison all along Not the antidote that I once swore I was