Loved You, Not

You're not special You're not useful You're not normal You're not sane You're not clever or insightful You're not calm or well behaved Not a leader, not a hero And not good at being brave You're just not, no you're not, you are not You're not beautiful or pretty You're not flattered when they stare You're not lovable or likable Or wanted anywhere You're not good enough To get enough To have enough to spare You're just not, no you're not, you are not But he loved you like you were something He loved you like you were someone He loved you like you were And like you were not Yeah he loved you, Nott He's not handsome, he's not charming Does not stand out in a crowd Not a looker, not a fighter Not too much of which he's proud He's not fast or fit or strong or rich Or tall or well endowed He's just not, no he's not, he is not But he's not selfish or deceitful He's not hateful, he's not cruel He's not someone who would hurt you Or who makes you feel a fool Not at all like all the boys Who used to torture you in school No he's not, he's just not, he is not And he loved you like you were something He loved you like you were someone And you loved him for all the things he was And for what he was not Yeah you loved him, Nott It's not right and it's not fair And It's not what you'd always prayed That someday you'd wake to find yourself Somehow finally changed Someone worth the love you've had Instead you find you're more the same And now you're not, you're still not, you are not But you're not giving up on hoping Not alone, at least not yet You're not ready to go home But you're not staying playing dead You're dying to believe you'll live to be the lovely things he said That you are, that you are, that you are You hope you are, hope you are, hope you are And he loved you like you were something That you are, that you are, that you are And he loved you like you were someone That you are, that you are, that you are That you are That you are That you are