Trust my Sound (feat. HalaCG)

1] I just feel like I'm a fluke I Know that I'm lucky But Jesus their must be a reason I'm hating the shit that I do My work is the rope at my neck like a noose I build myself up just to watch it go loose Cus I'm just a baby I can't walk in or fit in these adult shoes This isn't news I'm rambling Annoying can't handle it Tell me shut the fuck up i can manage it I got no drive, I'm just living my life But I'm losing the passion to improve my talent its Hard to keep up with the people that care Fabvl or DPS I don't compare I see the love that they have for the music For me I'm just stressed and I'm full of despair I can't be giving 100% But I know if I don't I'm embarrassed to share I was the first that the reason I'm here I don't look to the future cus that makes me scared I hate my voice and the shit that I say Bet that you're hearing the 80th take I hate myself I just get in the way But I Open the file and I do it again I used to think what one in a hundred said Was what I was 'Cause I trusted no one would see Pass what I could not But we could talk about anything Anything Yea And I could do about anything Anything Yea I still would think these thoughts But know deep down I'll come around I've learnt I've earned this spot and I've learnt to trust my sound This was thing I was dreaming of I cannot keep it up I've made a lot of new friends but I'm sorry I've struggled to keep in touch I think I've seen enough And honestly I think it seems to much I'll never be happy I guess What I thought was my solace now eats me up It is so obvious I don't think any my peers like the work that i do I see the way that they hype up each other But they would not care If i didn't have views They would not care If i didn't have views I'd be forgotten, so tell me the truth "Yes you got fans But the people who know what they're saying, ain't saying a thing about you" I know I'm pathetic It just reconfirms the things i fear They don't need to like me It just makes my situation clear Working for a decade And they're better in a couple years Why do i still bother Please just move along and leave me here I used to think what one in a hundred said Was what I was 'Cause I trusted no one would see Past what I could not But we could talk about anything Anything Yea And I could do about anything Anything Yea I still would think these thoughts But know deep down I'll come around I've learnt I've earned this spot and I've learnt to trust my sound