Just a Kid

Now damn, I'm just a kid Thinking 'bout everything I ever done did Things I wanna do and things I done lived Everything slow but I really wanna live Now say Damn, I'm just a kid Thinking about everything I wanna do and did Thinking 'bout if I go far or go big Thinking 'bout if I go dumb or go big I'm a child just like no other When I get scared I hide under covers On a sad day, man, I really miss my mother Only get one and you never get another When I was a child I was barely loved Mommy passed away and my daddy was on drugs Granny took me in with her five kids And up until 8, that's where I always lived Granny got sick and then she passed away Biggest heartbreak that I ever did take Things were so good, man, things were so great And then in one day my whole life had changed Suddenly I'm out here adopted No one from my family gave me the option To live with my family or someone familiar Gave me away to a person with hidden agendas Passed to stranger who needed the money She was psycho, she never loved me Damn, my whole life, everyone had to fuck me Wow, I guess I'm just lucky Now damn, I'm just a kid Thinking 'bout everything I ever done did Things I wanna do and things I done lived Everything slow but I really wanna live Now say Damn, I'm just a kid Thinking about everything I wanna do and did Thinking 'bout if I go far or go big Thinking 'bout if I go dumb or go big I never mattered, nobody ever cared Gave me to strangers who claimed me as theirs I was abused and I was aware She told me to lie and say that I fell Damn, I got marks on my face Disassociate and my thoughts go erased Numb in my soul, I feel so out of place Long way from home, I need out of this place I'm the sad kid and the bad kid I'm a disappointment and I'm average Never make her proud All I do is damage Called me a burden Bitch, she took advantage Now damn, I'm just a kid Thinking 'bout everything I ever done did Things I wanna do and things I done lived Everything slow but I really wanna live Now say Damn, I'm just a kid Thinking about everything I wanna do and did Thinking 'bout if I go far or go big Thinking 'bout if I go dumb or go big She said she loved me She didn't liked me I wasn't special and I wasn't likely Wasn't that cute No one would want me Nobody cared and that I was forgotten Left as an orphan No other options She hit me again and I want her to stop it The place of my soul has grown microscopic They take me on weekends and act like they care I lived in fear I was young, I was scared The scars of my childhood have followed me here The patterns repeat and they come back right here The patterns repeat and they come back right here