Not Myself Today

I was ready to be grown-up Just waiting for the day And now I am I'm freaking Does Mommy feel this way? See, they think that I have answers They look to me to guide They see this old, old woman But there's a little girl inside I'm not myself today I'm in a funny way I'm not the thing they think they see This alpha mommy She's not me They want a woman I can't be And words that I can't say I'm not the woman I thought I was I'm not myself today I had no idea a woman Could feel so damn dismissed They smile and call me "sweetheart" Does Ellie feel like this? See, if only they would listen I could get the search on track But when they hear me talking They just think I'm talking back I'm not myself tonight And more than me's not right 'Cause Fletcher's lost and so am I It's not that often by the by I wish I were a six foot guy But I want to win this fight I'm not the woman I need to be I'm not myself tonight If I had a kid And the kid ran away I'd hunt him down and kill him My god! What a thing to say! If I had a kid And the kid ran away I would find him I would hold him And then I'd kill him Okay I'm sorry! I'm not myself today Hey, are you okay? Are you okay? I'm not okay What a day Even with all of this Messed up between us I thought I would do better I thought I'd know the way I mean, even as you I'm a mess of a person Can't get my crap together I'm also a mess I'd say I'm not myself today! I'm not myself today! I'm not myself today! I'm not myself I'm not myself today! I'm not myself today (Fletcher!) I'm in an awful way (Hey Fletch!) I know I should be standing tall (ah) I never felt so (hey) Young and small (hey Fletcher) It breaks my heart To hear them call (Fletcher hey) When there's nothing I can say (hey Fletcher) I'm not the woman I thought I was (hey) I'm not the woman I wished I'd be (hey) I'm not myself today (hey) Hey (hey) Hey (hey) I'm not myself Today! (Fletcher! Fletcher! Fletcher!) Hey!