The Illusion of Choice III: Thanatos

Now with all the knowledge And skills gained in life I move into exile I've said my goodbyes I've conquered every plain My body is satisfied Created, Destroyed, Questioned I need only to die As I've continued to grow I've noticed With one blink of an eye What was abundant now absent And it's impossible to stay in one state With each passing second The present problems become the past Grow no more Terminate A concept debated for years So final, so solid, so absolute A word feared by every soul Each heart beats frantically in cowardice As I've continued to grow I've noticed With one blink of an eye What was abundant now absent And it's impossible to stay in one state With each passing second This generation becomes the past It is time Initiate I came with nothing I'll leave with knowledge I'm at my end I embrace for the final moments With everyone grasping for straws Trying to explain The meaning of it all, and how to die The message is repeated by billions We don't know, we just don't know And I'm just trying to explain Trying to move on Trying to accept my age With my head tilted back My throat open, I scream to the Gods With such intensity my throat fills with blood I tell the sky, I'm ready to die A gasp for air, I fall to the ground Once body, now merely a corpse My skin shreds, my bones go to dust My blood boils and seeps through the soil What's left, a soul left unbound Now begins a sought after passage Dark encompassed, I search for a light The smoke and fog engulf all around Terrified shrieks turn to laughs I cannot feel but am filled with sensation Come below the world and find Punishment for all your crimes A river of tortured souls Flows forth to a mouth of enormous size Swallowed, cleansed in acid Surrounded by prying eyes Join us as we all sit here for all of time and repent our past mistakes, and curse the god who breathed our breath into our lungs in the first place Cut the thread I have felt so certain But now I'm not sure that I'm ready to leave I have yet to even consider the possibility of oblivion Or if it's Hell that awaits me at the light Feel the drain Feel no pain What of the end? What will I become? Where will I go? Why did I live? What was the point? What did I gain? Did I ask for this life? When it's your time to go, it's your time to go I never asked for this I feel this is unfair Ready I need more time Or I am so afraid Not I lied to myself Die I don't want to die As I've continued to grow I've noticed With one blink of an eye What was abundant now absent And it's impossible to stay in one state With each passing second The present era the past Grow no more Terminate It is time Begin Decay This is the end Pack all your things Say your goodbyes And evacuate