The Great Illusion

To excel in the highs, I survive the lows I adjust to the pain and remain, of course Never lost in the sauce when you stay the course I plant seeds to my growth, through my thoughts and words Emerge, I rise from the rubble and the dust beneath me Feeling like I'm on the right path 'cause the journey ain't easy I can't leave rap alone, the game needs me But that's a lie, I been self-centered and selfish Reliving traumas, dealing with karma, I can't help it Headed in the wrong direction, these lessons I ain't learned Burning bridges due to pride, broken on the inside Still unsure of who I am, I don't know if there is a god Superstitious my religion, I follow internal laws Saw the signs and went the other way, a rebel with a cause Losing friends, the game foes, my insecurities exposed Internally it's like a fight, feel like they turning off the lights, but It could be my imagination Maybe it's the side effects of procrastination Like I died a million times, no exaggeration I need peace and abundance, please Lord give me something It could be my imagination Maybe it's the side effects of procrastination Like I died a million times, no exaggeration I need peace and abundance, please Lord give me something Throw some insight and perspective to live life with acceptance My younger years I admit I was overlooking blessings I was stressing, my tunnel vision blocked the bigger picture The older that I've gotten I've started to reconsider Reconfigure priorities, what's important and more to me The decisions that I'm making nowadays I base 'em morally Tried to learn from the past and not repeat it all historically Not the same story that I've been telling rhetorically I feel the pressure just like everybody else Sometimes to elevate we feel the need to lie to ourself No, it doesn't help, it's just a side effect of what we felt An alternate reality that we have built for ourselves Walking through the fire hot enough to make your feet melt It's gon' be a bumpy ride so buckle up your seatbelt Relax, enjoy the journey, it could all end quick And that's it, no guarantee the next is better than this, God It could be my imagination Maybe it's the side effects of procrastination Like I died a million times, no exaggeration I need peace and abundance, please Lord give me something It could be my imagination Maybe it's the side effects of procrastination Like I died a million times, no exaggeration I need peace and abundance, please Lord give me something Life is short, take large, best, good steps But because life is short, take pleasure in each step each moment